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Happy 2017

Good Morning World! Happy 2017

I realized I didn’t much blog last year, at all! I did however write a book. I sent it off to several publishers just before mercury went retrograde in December 2016, fingers crossed I’ll be a published author soon.

My year definitely started off with an unusual twist. I usually spend the first day setting up my vision board for the new year. Last year I created a beautiful PowerPoint presentation that I transformed into a screensaver that changed every 15 seconds so I could watch it each morning and run through my affirmations while tapping them into my consciousness via my thymus.

This year I fell ill just as the new year was approaching and I was too sick to dedicate much time and energy to my visions. However, I did attempt to start several times but just couldn’t follow through. On January 2nd, I was taken away by ambulance because my throat closed and I couldn’t breathe. I lay in the hospital for hours, unable to sleep with the constant chatter of nurses, doctors and other sick patients. In my room the constant noise of machines spitting up of reports, beeping when my breathing changed, blood pressure pump starting up every 15 minutes, heart monitor, etc. was not conducive to sleep.

I lay there trying to block out the obtrusive florescent lighting and crazy sounds. I began thinking of my health, I’m a fairly healthy person, heck I’m in the business of keeping people healthy. I hike daily for one to one and a half hours in an old growth forest filled with copious amounts of oxygen. I came to the conclusion I was simply cleansing and purging from the year. 2016 was a challenging year, not only for me but for many of us.

I sold my house, ended a twelve-year relationship and moved to a city where I didn’t know anyone on Vancouver Island. I followed my guidance and ended up here in Nanaimo, BC. In fact, I completed several relationships, some with family that broke my heart, some with friends that also broke my heart and some with students, again heart breaking. As I write, I realize just heart breaking 2016 was for me and I am suddenly overwhelmed by my strength and endurance. Listening to that little voice and following our divine plan is not always easy, but I know something awesome will come of it all.

So, yes, I have lots of cleansing to do. I woke up today feeling alive, spiritually alive for the first time since I moved here in August. I have been loving being in nature every day and in constant gratitude, but something just didn’t click. It was like I lost my mojo. I was still following spiritual practice but not whole heartedly.

I started today by sitting in bed with a awesome dark roast cup of coffee in one hand and my journal in the other. Maggie my little schnoodle lay curled up at the end of the bed, opening an eye and looking at me now and then. I pondered what to do and decided to activate my Merkabah. I decided to take several holograms out into the time space continuum for clearing and healing. I chose a focus (my book getting published) and saw what turned up. The holograms that showed up surprised me; Success, Fame, Acknowledgement, Financial Freedom and Creativity. I brought them to the time space continuum and cleaned them up, next to Cosmic Consciousness and filled with them gold, then off to Source and added to each what they asked for.

Success wanted to be connected to the other holograms, Fame wanted influence to assist the masses, Acknowledgement wanted rewards of sorts, Financial Freedom wanted ability to assist and contribute and Creativity wanted to be inspired by Source to assist the collective consciousness to move forward. I filled them all with what they required and brought them back to my physical body. Then I just sat there just thinking, “Huh”.

Next, I decided to pull a card from my deck, WISDOM OF THE HIDDEN REALMS – by Colette Baron-Reid & Jena Della Grottaglia … to decide what my focus for the month should be. I got the Ice Queen.


“Ice Queen  ~  28  ~

ideas preserved, non-action, entitlement

The Ice Queen has come to block your movement for your highest good.  Let your ideas be preserved until later.  You can thaw them out and use them at another time when they will best serve.

The realm of the Ice Queen is the place of nonaction, and now is a perfect time to take a look at how far you’ve come and to ask yourself for a reclarification of your highest goals.

Not all plans can be accomplished at this moment.  In fact, putting them on ice allows for the perfect timing later on.  Don’t be too hasty in trying to reach your goal.  An even better one will present itself if you surrender and spend the winter with the Ice Queen.

Perhaps too, you are trying to do too many things at once.  This is a good occasion to choose only one thing to focus on and let the Ice Queen put the others in the deep freeze until a more appropriate time.  She’ll let you know when it’s time to let them thaw.”

Wow, it suddenly dawned on me. I try to do too much! Like in a big, huge way too much. Take last years’ vision board for instance, it was 33 pages. I must be insane, make no wonder my life went into turmoil! How can one person expect to do or change so many things and have life purr along without consequence? So, I stopped, and chose to focus on what I had just done, my Merkabah activations. I will continue with them throughout January.

I hopped out of bed, thrilled with myself for not adding too much to my plate and began preparing some food. I do tend to eat strange things for breakfast so if this might sound weird. I chose a bunch of spinach and a half of left over chicken breast from yesterday. I just put the spinach in the pan right from the sink after rinsing it so I didn’t need oil. Once it was half cooked I sliced up my chicken placed it on top and added some miso gravy. I chose a smaller plate than normal and instead of putting it all onto the dish, I took two thirds.

As I sat down, I could tell a shift had occurred. I decided to become the observer and watch. I began with a prayer of gratitude than began to eat. I made a conscious choice to put my fork down after each bite. I made eating a meditation, I felt my food. The texture, the taste, the sensation of my body accepting this nutritious meal. I took my time, chewed and finished each mouthful completely before shoveling in the next bite. No distractions, no TV, no music, no reading, just me and my food. In that moment, I made the commitment to eat all my meals like this from now on. No more shoveling food in to fill the hunger between clients or activities, no more eating on the run, no more reading at the dinner table, just me honouring the food and its healing effects on my body.

There is a minimum of eight levels of consciousness required for this choice alone.

  • Give gratitude while preparing food
  • Take only 2/3 of what is prepared
  • Make a prayer of thanks to the elementals beings who provided the food (vegetables, fruits or animals)
  • Remove all distractions, TV or reading/writing
  • Take a bite and chew it, feel it and taste it, then finish it (3 things)
  • Take another bite and do the same until complete

Then there was my second epiphany for the morning regarding doing too much. If my only vision for the year was say, health, what would that include? Well there’s the element of food which includes healthy choices, cooking styles, preparation and how to eat healthy. Then there’s activity, fitting in time, which type of activities support your body type, regularity and taking care of your post work out body with stretching and body rolling. Then there’s supplementation, making sure your nutritionally sound and taking the appropriate supplements for your body type based on your food and activities. Then there’s getting out and having fun and being fulfilled, that is critical to our health. What about balance?

My God, making one choice, just to be healthy includes changing our consciousness about literally dozens of things!!! No wonder so many people fail their new year’s resolutions. I’m pretty sure my vision board this year will only have a 3 items on it for 2017. Those alone will morph into dozens of positive modifications … yup, I’m sure glad the Ice Queen showed up this morning.

I’d like to end my first blog of the year with a video for you all, blessings…carol



New Perspectives on…everything? Our community circle experience.

I recently became a Minister, a Minister without my own chapel…so I thought to myself, “How can I give back to others and my community in a unique way?” What seemed like a small thought soon turned into a decision to form a new company called New Perspectives http://www.newperspectivesministry.ca  New Perspectives is a way of seeing the world and people around us in a new light…one that is kinder, realistic, and much more open. Since my intent is to bring new perspectives in the thinking, actions, feeling and spiritual lives of others, the name really fits for me.

That being said, I decided that I wanted to create the feeling of community and inclusiveness, not only for others, but for myself. Years ago I co-created a community circle that went from 5 people to over 60! It was a beautiful experience that I still reflect on today. I recognize that being open and vulnerable to others about how we feel about ourselves and life can be powerfully healing. To go beyond hearing, and to really listen to the voices and spirits of others is a precious gift that produces sisterly/brotherly love and a unique bond.

The beginning of a new moon cycle and the first of 2012, was the perfect time to begin and have our opening circle. So, what is the purpose of the New Perspectives Community Circle? The purpose of community circles is to bring people together to share their values, wisdoms, culture, talents and gifts. This idea is based on the foundation that we need all our lives to be filled with happiness, meaning, purpose, creativity, money, energy, friendship, relationship and more.

Traditionally, people gather in circles when they come together to eat, share and to create. The shape of a circle helps to improve communication, and sitting in a simple circle brings people together in a meaningful, empowering, healing, and creative way. It allows us to experience belonging and contribute to relationship building.

When we meet in a circle with the intention to truly listen to one another, we begin to experience the power and support that cultivates from the circle. When we sit together in a circle we create a safe space for each person to be themselves, to learn, and to grow. The circle is a holding place where our thoughts, feelings and inner wisdom can be brought forth. Circles can be a space to be nourished and inspired – a holding place where we as individuals and as groups can clarify our focus on what has real meaning and value. Because the center of a circle is related to our own inner center, it reminds us to be present while we listen and while we speak. Sitting in a circle is an opportunity to be present in ourselves and with each other.

The 22nd was a blustery day with lots of rain so a few didn’t make it and others fell ill. Our total for the group was 6, three men and three women, a perfect balance of the Divine Feminine and Masculine energies. The great thing about it, was that 3 members had never been in a circle before so it was a new experience for them. The smaller circle provided an opportunity to repeat each question twice, compelling each of us to dig a little deeper the second round. Going into a deeper space, opens the heart, mind and our being to new possibilities and ideas that emerge.

I came up with a list of topics to get the ball rolling and the evening before the circle my partner and I chose a dozen or so we felt would be appropriate for our first gathering. I printed them up, put them in a bowl and as a group decided to go with whatever question was drawn from the bowl. My hope is that as our circle evolves, the members will contribute questions that we can incorporate into the mix.

We began with each person sharing their name and a little about why they were at the circle. Followed was a short meditation to ground us and open our hearts. Next our first question was selected, “Tell us something you would like less of in your life”, the next question that was pulled from the bowl was, “Tell us something you would like more of in your life”, and the last one to be drawn was “Tell us where you get your inspiration” A poem was read at the end, which I changed a little to better serve our needs…I have enclosed it below.  We completed with each person sharing how they were feeling. I found that with the smaller group we were able to do three topics before we ate, in larger circles we would do one topic or question, break for goodies then return to the circle.

For me, the social aspect afterward was fantastic. I felt that once I really listened and understood another members deepest feelings on a topic, I really was drawn to learn more about them.

There are some simple guidelines that we have:

  • Consider it a sacred space
  • One person speaks at a time; whomever has the rock
  • Speak and listen from the heart
  • Encourage and welcome diverse points of view
  • Listen with discernment instead of judgment
  • Offer experience instead of advice
  • You do not have to share
  • When in doubt or need, pause and silently ask for guidance
  • Everything in the circle is to be held in confidence
  • Speak from your own experience and beliefs rather than speaking for others
  • Open and close the circle by hearing each voice (Check-ins and check-outs)

We have decided that all the donations collected each month will be saved. twice a year we will decide, as a group what type of charitable action we would like to make with the funds. I’m am so excited about our group going out together one day and spreading good will, love and ourselves to community! I am happy to report that our first gathering yielded $60.00 of Love.

If you want to join our circle this is what you need to bring:

  • Your beautiful spirit
  • Openness to be present
  • A light snack to share
  • A love donation (to go to charity)

Join us at Soul Alchemy Healing to share with a unique group of individuals, to speak, be heard, heal, create, laugh, cry, bear witness — and be cradled in compassion. Our shared topics allow new insights and perspectives to penetrate you life. No experience necessary. Join our community and empower yourself by truly being heard!

Gatherings are the third Sunday of each month from 1:00-4:00pm

RSVP is a must, limited space available!

Contact Carol for location details @ 778-887-4400 or  Email: carol@soulalchemyhealing.com

Imagine a Person (previously Imagine a Woman)

  by Patricia Lynn Reilly


Imagine a person who honors their experience and tells their stories.

  Who refuses to carry the sins of others within their body and life.


Imagine a person who believes they are good.  A person who trusts and

respects themselves.  Who listens to their needs and desires, and then meets

them with tenderness and grace.


Imagine a person who has acknowledged the past’s influence on the

present.  A person who has walked through their past.  Who has healed into

the present.


Imagine a person who authors their life.  A person who exerts,

initiates, and moves on their own behalf.  Who refuses to surrender except

to their truest self and their wisest voice.


Imagine a person who names their own gods.  A person who imagines the divine

in their image and their likeness. Who designs their own spirituality and

allows it to inform their daily life.


Imagine a person in love with their own body.  A person who believes their body

is enough, just as it is.  Who celebrates their body and its rhythms

as an exquisite resource.


Imagine a person who honors the face of the god/goddess in their changing

face.  A person who celebrates the accumulation of their years and their

wisdom.  Who refuses to use precious energy disguising the changes in their

body and their life.


Imagine a person who values the people in their life.  A person who sits in

circles of other people.  Who is reminded of the truth about themselves

when they forget.


Imagine yourself as this person.